I am thankful for my daughter. I am thankful that she is full of light and grace and tenderness and hilarious comments. I am thankful that she loves swimming and thinks she owns it with a kick board. I am thankful that she still thinks I'm cool sometimes. I am thankful she has more people that love her than almost anyone. I am thankful for her friends. Last week we stayed with our besties for a few days. Harper and her friend have been missing each other this weekend. Her girlfriend gave her mom this message for me to relay to Harps "I want Harper to always be here. I know we'd argue but that's okay. And I know what it'd be about. Sometimes my little brother hurts me and Harper says, 'it's okay Benny; you're just so cute.' And I'm like, 'unbelievable, I thought I was your best friend.'" Come on - that is awesome. I'm thankful for the minds of five year olds and summer vacation.
I am thankful for the good people that are taking care of me. I could just list a bazillion names here. I am so fortunate to have people that love me and want good things for me. I hope that I have the chance to love other like they are loving me these days. I feel selfish and humbled and needy. But I wouldn't be making it without them. So I'm deeply thankful.
I am thankful for simple pleasures. A few quiet minutes by myself. Dr. Pepper (always, right?). A great book I read (Bel Canto by Ann Patchett. If you like beautiful things you will read this.). Good music with perfect lyrics. A great laugh. A funny pin on Pinterest. I can't tell you why those "Hey Girl" Ryan Gosling pictures make me laugh like they do. An episode of Modern Family while I eat a cupcake in bed. What? Texts from people that check on me.
I had a day that was pretty hard to get through this past week. A significant date for Matt and I. I let myself be as sad as I wanted to. I listened to sad songs and looked at things from our life. It was pretty crushing. I'll keep the details of it for myself. However, in the midst of that I felt God's joy. And for that I was the most thankful. This life is hard. It's bitter and ugly and feels like a beat down. It is also filled with the sweetest joys and some happinesses that you couldn't make up if you tried to. I'm crabby today. Like you would NOT believe. But I'm trying to choose joy. I'm remembering that there is so much good. There is much to be thankful for. I'm going to go squeeze my girl.