Tuesday, May 4, 2010

no words -- only faces

There have been so many days throughout the process of trying to finalize Wavy's adoption that we have gotten really rough news.  I feel like on so many of those days we have had hardly any verbal reaction.  Sometimes words just fail us.  I just look at Matt's face and see what must be all over my face too: despair, fatigue, hopelessness.  After the benefit dinner Coach's held for us we were back in that same boat of not really having any words.  We just kept looking at each other and smiling and shaking our heads.  With happiness and disbelief.  Every once in a while I giggled.  

We were so overwhelmed by the amount of people that came out tonight (about 175!).  It was not only encouraging to see how many people were there for us but who those people were.  We were so delighted to see friends and family rallying for us.  We also had the pleasure of seeing friends we have not seen in ages, family and friends OF our family and friends, and new friends we have made through this blog but had not yet met in person.  Another thing that Matt and I really marveled over was a strong sense of support and family from the adoptive community.  What a lovely, lovely experience.  

Here's the thing.  Our sincere sentiment was that the dinner at Coach's would have been an amazing experience for us as a source of support and encouragement if it had been simply a gathering of friends for the sake of uplifting our spirits.  We would have paid handsomely for that experience.  I felt positively euphoric afterwards and have smiled and laughed more in the past 48 hours than I probably have in the last month or so.  But listen.  

It raised a lot of money.  

We have some upcoming legal bills that will be pretty sizable.  Our lawyer consulted at length with a brief writing specialist (not the technical term I'm sure) for this latest round of appeal.  We are so relieved to have funds to pay for that with instead of incurring further credit card debt.  It's true that money can't buy happiness, but it can buy a whole lot of legal counsel.  Which feels pretty fantastic.

So a huge thank you to all of you who were a part of this.  We are so grateful.  And for those of you who read this and pray for us we are infinitely thankful for you as well.  Thank you for providing us with love and community and the assurance that we are not in this alone.  Thank you for the smiles on our faces.

Molly for all


Chris and Diane said...

so great to hear!!!


I have been following your blog for some time now. I have to say that this is so frusterating to read and I can only imagine how you feel about the thought of this guy taking your child, who from what I can gather is not even doing it because he actually wants her. Anyway...my point is that I am praying for you, and I have been and now I will even harder. I couldn't imagine loosing my daughter (who is barely younger than wavy) and I dont want you to loose yours. Take care and keep your head up!!

All of Gods Blessing to you