Tuesday, February 28, 2012

I choose joy.

Lately I've been working on a choice I decided to make a long time ago.  That choice is to choose joy.  Sometimes it just feels impossible.  It is easier for me to sit vigil with my grief for losing Waverley and keep vigil with my worries for her than it is for me to feel the joy of the here and now.  Joy really is a decision I have to actively make.  Most good things are.  My marriage and my parenting are full of choosing the right thing even when I don't want to.  Choosing joy for me thus far has been much the same.  I'm so very thankful for the sweetness that comes when I do make the right choice, and for the relief I feel when I surrender all of that pain for as long a stretch as I can manage.

Today I saw a video that really touched me.  Maybe some of you have seen it.   This woman's name is Ashley.  She has cancer.  And a sweet husband and babies.  And she shaves her head with them.  And she chooses joy.

Rite of Passage - Shaving my Head from Ashley Hackshaw on Vimeo.

Her blog is found here.

Thanks for continuing to come around to check my blog.  I know it's been almost a month since we posted. I'll be back around more often now -- if you care to know!



Kelsey said...

I care to know! I'm glad you'll be back around. Love you guys!

Danielle @ Living Out Loud said...

I spent the better part of last night reading Ashley's blog and bawling my eyes out. Wow! What an inspiration... I wish I knew how to "choose joy" so easily. Fear and worry are constant battles for me. Anyway, thanks for sharing your heart... I love reading your posts... they make me laugh, smile, and cry all at the same time!

Lori! said...

MOLLY!!!! You need to post a tissue warning with things like that. But seriously, thank you for sharing. Thank you for sharing so honestly. I love your heart! As always, I continue to pray for you and your sweet family.

On Loan From Heaven said...

Glad to have you back :-) Would love an adoption update... I know those are dis-heartening sometimes; or all the time, if you're me... still nice to know how to pray for you :-)