Thursday, December 30, 2010

Here we go...

Well, we've intended to update everyone much sooner on what happened in court yesterday, but the last 24 hours or so have been very trying and I think much harder that we had anticipated. While we've known since the Supreme Courts ruling what would likely happen we've still been holding out hope. Hoping that something would change, hoping that this wouldn't play out the way we feared, hoping for a miracle. Yesterday seemed to bring the realization that a miracle was not coming, and why we didn't expect it, we did hope for it and feeling that hope slip away has been hard - hope is an incredibly powerful thing.

Walking you through the details of yesterday would take pages and pages but I'll try and give the high points and keep it brief. Going in we had hoped that Judge Sheppard would take our expert witness and her transition plan as well as the expert from the other side and come up with a healthy transition plan for Waverley into the home of one of her natural parents. From the times that we were before Judge Sheppard I have felt that he really did have Waverley's best in mind, however after yesterday, I think I may have misjudged him. At this point it probably wouldn't be fair to go into the details ( I may in another post, later though) but he essentially washed his hands of the whole thing and did very little in keeping Waverley in mind, although he had the authority to do so. It was very disappointing. I don't know that I was fully jaded on or legal system even after the Supreme Court's ruling, but I am now after seeing yesterday play out.

We now have, at least for the next couple of weeks, some clarity on what this transition will look like. For the next couple of weeks we will have daily (court ordered) visitations with Waverley's biological father. The first of these will take place at our home with the visits eventually taking place in his home with the idea that Waverley would be fully transferred into his custody towards the end of this month.

Now, there is a possibility that this plan could change some as there is a separate custody hearing on January 10th where a different district court Judge will determine which of the natural parents would get ultimate custody of Waverley and what that might look like.  I know, I know, you can't make this stuff up. That's about all we can share on this part, but that is another date we would be asking everyone to pray for as it will determine a huge part of Waverley's future.

This is it. The time we've been dreading since we heard back from the Supreme Court. The reality that we will be losing our daughter could not be made any clearer. Having a judge read a court order has the effect of making everything very real. So, on Saturday, January 1st we begin walking this road of transition. I know we've asked so many times for your prayers, but we ask again that you pray for us as we walk this next leg of our journey.  As always, pray the best for Waverley - that God's will be done for her in court on the 10th and that he puts her in the best possible situation for her future. Pray that this transition goes surprisingly well for her and that it isn't traumatic for her. Pray for Molly and I that we are able to be kind and gracious in the face of all of this and that Waverley will have a sense of security and not a sense of fear over the next few weeks. And, for all of you that still want to, you can pray for a miracle. I don't see where there is a possibility for one, but I'm sure anyone that's experienced a miracle felt that way - otherwise it wouldn't really be a miracle. Right?

Thank you all for praying for us throughout this whole journey. Thank you for fighting along side of us in this, for helping to bear our burden. You have no idea the encouragement you all have been through this.

We will continue to keep you posted....

11 comments:

Kelsey said...

the Kautzis are still praying for a miracle. there's no deadline or timeline for that prayer-we'll keep praying for it until we get it! but in the meantime, we are also praying for abundant mercies to cover the four of you. so disappointing to hear of the cowardice of the judge. ugh. love you guys and so admire your courage and faith.

Jessica Blake said...

We are also continuing to pray for a miracle. As i continue to tell people about your family, people are being added to the army daily who are captivated and moved by your story with no other choice than to fight along side of you in prayer. I pray waverly, in her small little body, will feel and know the power, peace and comfort of our Lord Jesus as we pray for and along side of her. I'm so sorry for another disappointing day for you.

Katy said...

I am praying for you as well and will continue to do so. I pray for comfort for Harper and Waverly as they go through this transition.
God Bless you!

cody said...

I haven't been able to stop thinking about your family and at the same time praying for you several times throughout each day. I am praying for a supernatural strength, courage, grace, peace and hope from the Lord in this month ahead.

We will continue to lift up your needs pleading with the Lord for all that you need from Him to be able to do what He is requiring of you.

Linnea said...

I will pray for a miracle as well as the other stuff because God likes to do things last minute to show off. I am so sorry you are going through this.

Be blessed

Ashlee

Erin and Roger Bell said...

The Bell's are praying, we will pray for all that you have requested and more. We will pray for the things you need prayer for but haven't been able to share. Our hearts hear your pain, and your hopes, God hears them even louder. Praying for you both, and Harper, and of course little Wavybel. Sending lots of love and strength your way.

Amanda said...

I don't know you Molly and Matt. But I feel a great love for you and your little family. I have shed tears for Waverly as I have a 2.5 year old right now. And to think of having to try and explain something like this to him is unimaginable. I don't know what I can say. Except this is wrong. so wrong. And I feel for you and her big sister. but most of all I hurt for Waverly. For the little girl too young to completely understand that her Mommy and Daddy Love her to the core and do not want to do what is about to happen. I am so sorry. so sorry that anyone has to suffer through this tragedy. I hope Waverly defies all odds and has an easy transition and a good life. I pray she and you can feel the loving arms of our Heavenly Father's arms wrapped around you.

HannahM said...

Praying with so many others- for a miracle for you, for Waverly, and for Harper.

Sonya said...

Have been praying that today and the next few weeks have gone/will go as smoothly as possible and be the least traumatic for Waverly as possible. So very sorry for the pain you guys are in right now. Always praying!!!

Vanessa said...

I'm so very, very sorry. I am still going to keep praying. God is a miracle worker. He has Waverly's best in mind always!

I know you have on your blog page not to share or link to this blog, but I wanted to know if I could on my personal adoption blog so that you could have more praying for you. Could you please email me to let me know? jewelsntreasures (at) yahoo (dot) com

Jess said...

Oh my heart continues to break for you. I don't know what to say other than I am praying for peace for you, Molly and Waverly. I am so, so sad for you. Please continue to update us on how the transition goes and how the girls are doing. Thank you for this update. I am so very sorry.