Thursday, February 10, 2011

Your Hands

We have a lot of ups and downs.  Today has been a particularly hard day for me.  From the moment I woke up I just had the heaviest heart.  I miss her all day every day but today I felt like I missed Waverley by the second.  I would give anything to hug her, or sit by her, or just smile at her and see her smile in return.  I think it might kill me.  


Something that has surprised me as being one of the hardest things to handle is hearing any music we listed to together.  She was so particular about hearing exactly the right song.  She knew what she wanted to listen to, how many times in a row, at what volume, and she meant business.  She had her own title for each song.  I can't bear to hear it right now because I can just hear her little voice in the back seat singing along.  Otherwise I would post a link so you could hear it.  But these are the lyrics to a song she wanted to hear a lot the last few weeks she was with us.  She called it The Girl Song.


Tonight I'm thinking about The Girl Song.  I am trying really hard to hold onto the principle of it for myself and let it comfort me for her.  




Your Hands by JJ Heller


I have unanswered prayers
I have trouble I wish wasn't there
And I have asked a thousand ways
That You would take my pain away
That You would take my pain away

I am trying to understand
How to walk this weary land
Make straight the paths that crookedly lie
Oh Lord, before these feet of mine
Oh Lord, before these feet of mine

When my world is shaking
Heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave Your hands

When You walked upon the Earth
You healed the broken, lost, and hurt
I know You hate to see me cry
One day You will set all things right
Yea, one day You will set all things right

When my world is shaking
Heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave Your hands

Your hands
Your hands that shape the world 
Are holding me, they hold me still
Your hands that shape the world
Are holding me, they hold me still

When my world is shaking
Heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave You when...

When my world is shaking
Heaven stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave...
I never leave Your hands